Saturday, January 31, 2009

Started a new blog

Somehow it just did not seem appropriate to convert 'In My Mind' to a fashion(y) blog... So I decided to start a new one:

http://cranberryocean.blogspot.com

Since it's about the things I love... I probably should've named it http://cranberryocean.garriandhomomilk.passionfruitjuice.
braceletsandfruitylotions.stilletosandbrightwinterjackets.
curlyweaves.blogspot.com...
But I did not.
The domain was not available.

About Cranberry Ocean: I love cranberries... and the ocean. Organized religion and obscure musicians. I carry a calculator around with me all the time. I often wonder if living is an art or a science. I wish my paternal grandfather was still alive... so I could tell him I have forgiven him for the dirty slap he once gave me.

On a completely unrelated note:
I have work, 2 major papers due, a midterm and a web assignment to accomplish in a couple of days. Lord help me...
oh... and I'm going to be part of a bridal train in which the bride and groom are both cheating on each other... Lord help me especially here...

Thanks for all the messages on the last post... I really did not think of it as anything special to do... My belief in life is: Those who are able to... DO.
But I really do appreciate it... I'll update on our journey...

Blessings and suede booties...
xxxMuahxxx

Monday, January 26, 2009

I have decided to adopt

...a girl...
...a wonderful, gorgeous, lovely, loving girl...
...an 18 year old girl...

I am aware it's more common to adopt an infant... a toddler... as they are still young... like clay... to be molded into the vessels they occupy for the rest of their lives...

But my girl is perfect as she is... so soft-spoken and kind... despite the people she's grown up around her entire life.

Her mother is dead, her father rejects her because he has another family... her grandmother is dying, her sisters kicked her out of their home... asides from my sister and some friends, she is alone in the world.

So I will adopt her.
I'm only 4 years older and might not have too much 'motherly' advice to give her... but I know how to love...and to share... cos I know what it's like to feel alone in the world... to feel rejected by family... I have lived it... and still live it.

She is so beautiful... you'd love her if you saw her... with dark caramel skin and a slight lisp... and pearly white teeth... she smiles a lot despite the curveballs life has thrown at her. Yeah... she smiles with her eyes.

Her mother was her best friend... she died of cancer about 2 years ago... her father had promised her mom on her deathbead to take care of her...
...he LIED...

He now reminds her of his new family whom he can't afford to loose... he does not speak to her of education past high school, he does not care if she eats or not... does not call her to see if she has clothes, shelter...
... he has his own family...

Her sisters... oh gosh... the story I heard about her sisters made the tears flow uncontrollably...
Her grandmother(the person she is most close to in the world)... is robbed by her older sister, the woman has suffered two strokes and a heart attack and is being indefinitely held in the intensive care unit... her sisters charge their grandmother to feed her, they hardly change her(diapers)... this girl travels on the bus for over 2 hours sometimes... just to change her grandmother and take her food...
... she is only eighteen...

The stories I heard last night... I was trying to comfort her... and ended up just sobbing alongside her...
... her grandmother is dying...
...she has some family... but is alone...
... so I will love her...

Everything I do for my sister... I will do for her...
... My heart has been stolen by the tears of a wonderful young girl in need...
... I love her...

and yes... I will adopt her.
There is so much pain and sadness in the world... sometimes I wish I had a magic wand...

There is a God.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

I am grateful for...

I never have any new year resolutions... I just reflect on what make me happy...

Friends and family...
I'm extremely blessed.

Him... his eyes look for me the minute I walk away...

My new Max Axria dress... I discover new things about it every time I wear it... (As I speak... I'm at home wearing the extremely glamorous dress, watching Oprah, eating kidney beans with spiced spinach... ahhhh... the healthy-fab life... )

My belly... is the sexiest it's ever been... I'd repierce it... but I might as well wait until summer... and maybe not even then... I'm not sure how I feel about showing my belly in anything but a bikini anymore... (I'll be 23 in 2 months... but ahn what the heck... I have 6 months to decide...)

Fruits and Passions Georgia Peach Eau de Fruits... It smells heavenly... pretty cheap too...

My new 120Gb Ipod... it can store more music than I probably even know... so far I'm only 4Gb deep... and currently OVER-playing Adele, Betty Wright, Cesaria Evora, Daft Punk, Erupt, Feist, Goldfrapp, Husker Du, Ingrid Michaelson, Jason Mraz, KT Tunstall, Lou Reed, Moloko, Nick Drake, Orion Experience, Priscilla Ahn, Ray Charles, Sia, Tracey Chapman, Unklejam, Van Halen, Whitney Houston, Yelle(...I don't listen to any musicians whose names start with X or Z... feel free to introduce me... lol)

Text Messaging...

New skills I'm picking up: wearing eyeliner(blogger extraordinaire Boob sistas says liquid liner is a better option... as we speak I've already bought 3 different kinds(of liquid liner)...and 3 pencil ones... lol... (so far my straight line is 7/10 so far. Next try will be a Brigitte Bardot...). How to experiment with food... today I made red pepper, fresh tomatoes, mushrooms, spinach, tuna & red snapper sauce for ripe plantains... yesterday it was a corned beef sauce for kenkey... oh gosh I might have a chance with an African after all... hehe

Blogging... I know I havent written much on here lately... well thats partially cos I've been busy but mostly because I feel completely naked on here... some people peck and peck and peck... and well... Frankly, I got tired. So now I write about the shoes I got at the mall and the great passion I have for cranberry ice-cream and slouchy boots. I decided that I'll go back to me again... cos as much pleasure as there is in my life right now... there's also a bit of pain... and in the great words of the best singer of our generation Miss Britney Spears in Circus: "theres only two types of people in the world... the ones that entertain and the ones that observe"...
*I've chosen, not well necessarily to entertain, just not to observe*

In that vein... every once in a while... I'll think of *Pete* on paper... see if he translates as well in words as he does in actions... cos in actions he is the last flower you see in the fall... you know the one hanging onto the stem by a breath... the one it almost seems like a sacrilege to pluck... a few thorns if you chose to... but with that... an overwhelming feeling of having captured beauty. I think he was put on earth to teach me about the world... he will go his way one day and I will go mine... but in the meantime... I'm open.

God: I am not necessarily religious... just spiritual. I am a christian... just don't identify with any church in particular... so in the meantime... I go to anyone I feel like cos I believe God is everywhere... most especially in our hearts. I'm glad that I have someone I can talk to when my bank account is in the minus... and when my heart hurts and when I'm sick and when I'm scared. God is love.

Techno/house/garage music: I derive complete joy in dancing with no rhythm and throwing myself about akwardly and without inhibition... House music is my first love... I'm the weirdest of my friends as I combine this love with a love for music in languages that I do not understand...

Drinking garri with cold 3.25%homogenized milk, unsalted peanuts and ice cubes.

Education... I have a friend who is not confident in speech because, despite the natural intelligence... not enough books were read... and the words sometimes don't come out right...

My sister... she is the singular most beautiful person I know... physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually... a LOVELY person... someday I'll make her write something here...

This year will be better than the last... as great as that one was.

Happy new year all!