Tuesday, October 21, 2008

I miss you

I miss you... the girl I once was... with your uncaring attitude and your unattachment... for your ability to be in it but look in on it... to not always say how you feel or what you think... to be so many things to so many people...

I miss you... the girl I once was... with your mature eyes... and your ability to follow through with the 'plan'... your control...

I miss you... the girl I once was... who stood her emotional ground... and... didn't want to cry when it wasn't going the way she wanted even though she knew it was going the way it probably should...

I miss you... the girl I once was... cos you probably wouldn't be here...
... in detrimental 'like'

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Un- Titled

...(yippity yap... blappity blah..)... my girlfriend

hold up... say what?

Hold what up?... aren't you my girl?

No


What are we doing then?

Just being.
I hate titles...


Titles?

Yeah... titles... expectations... whatever. You're good with me... I'm good with you... can't that just be all for now?

I want all of you

I know... and you have as much as I have to give right now...

I love you

I know... you're beautiful.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

My Best Friend

is my mirror... the ray of light that shines inside... reflecting my good... deflecting my bad.

She's so pure, positive... and perfect

Beautiful in appearance mind and spirit.... specially sent down to be my sounding board and therapist and shopping partner and music collaborator and confidante and co-conspirator...

Always there to hold my hand... gives me a shoulder to lean on when need one
...the friend with whom I unburden and cry and scream and whine and smile and laugh...

So giving in every way imaginable... I bless the day I met her...

Will love her forever
...and ever...

AND EVER

Monday, October 06, 2008

This feeling...

Is that I-always-want-to-be-around- you always feeling... that I miss you even before you leave feeling... that I think about you in my spare time... and not so spare time... well just cos...

Is that i just want you to hold me... no words, no sounds... just you, me and our thoughts...

Is that wanting to do things for you that I've never done for any other person... that wanting to go outside my comfort zone...that not having a comfort zone

Is that not seeing anything else about you but the beauty of your soul... the honesty... and clarity of mind... the way that you are...

Is that finding the really silly and ordinary things you say really sweet...

Is that sometimes wishing i could crawl inside you and curl up... and just be...

Is the fact that I wore that shirt cos you like the way it looks on...

Is wanting to make sure you're full while I eat

Is that feeling when times flies and not much else matters but our moment...when I forget responsibilities and worries... and just am

Is the way I want to dance for you... and sing to you... and speak your language... and mine...

Is the way you laugh... your very funny and warm laugh... your weird dance... and akward movement...

Is that wanting to see you smile and look at me the way you do

I know it definitely has an expiry date... but in the meantime... I sort of like this feeling...

Thursday, October 02, 2008

His Versace Underwear

Where does her reality end and her fantasy begin...
...The lines are so blurry...

She could be happy... but won't...
...the status quo... expectations... explanations...

It would have to suffice...
... his Versace underwear...