Tuesday, October 21, 2008

I miss you

I miss you... the girl I once was... with your uncaring attitude and your unattachment... for your ability to be in it but look in on it... to not always say how you feel or what you think... to be so many things to so many people...

I miss you... the girl I once was... with your mature eyes... and your ability to follow through with the 'plan'... your control...

I miss you... the girl I once was... who stood her emotional ground... and... didn't want to cry when it wasn't going the way she wanted even though she knew it was going the way it probably should...

I miss you... the girl I once was... cos you probably wouldn't be here...
... in detrimental 'like'

35 comments:

bumight said...

maybe you just...grew up?

Omosewa said...

Hello pookie...

I know what it means to be different things to different people.

Mwahh

Vera Ezimora said...

I totally relate to your first line...the uncaring attitude, being in it and looking in on it. Soooo me.

....Can't say it's the best thing to do, but it's a good defense mechanism. Protects ur heart mighty well.

miz-cynic said...

i once used 2 b al dat til bro came n released my floodgates of caring

Kpakpando said...

in like is lovely :) I love being in like and being in a safe space to let it all go and just happen. Embrace like, it was only an illusion that control gave you.

NikkiSab said...

Babe, sth is definately up wit u and I tink u need to talk to someone. My advice is sometimes we dream and wish and hope to do and be so many things in d future but Life has its own game and we may or may not get all our tins we want. Don't give up gal stay strong. I'll send u a msg on facebook.

LusciousRon said...

First.
I miss me like that too.

LusciousRon said...

First. I miss that girl that was me.

Uber Fabulous Nigerian Girl said...

overwhelmed!! where are you?? please do a proper post soon. we miss you!
xoxo

Padosh said...
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Buttercup said...

i really do miss the girl i was once too...

how r u tho??

Smaragd said...

am I first or what? i'm just too hot!

what happened to this wonderful sounding girl?

did she "grow up"?

lovely write-up

Zena said...

I still say you're a more articulate, taller, better looking, freaking intelligent me,

it's like ur chanelling me or something,

This was a beautiful poem

temmy tayo said...

Uhmn.............

rethots said...

...eventually, we all evolve.

Chari said...

*SIGH*

hope ur good love...

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NigerianDramaQueen said...

It's funny,
A friend of mine just posted a note like this that is almost verbatim of this post.
Part of you is still the girl that you were, and part of you is the woman you must be for now. Detrimental in like...I know the feeling. How is Marley by the way? Is he history?

talesandtallies said...

whoa... this is deep. The beginning of soul searching is now.

T & T
xoxo

Sola Folowosele said...

i feel your flow,babe i feel your thought.
but the transformation is inevitable..you'v just got to move on

Sola Folowosele said...

nice blog you have here

Miss Definitely Maybe said...

wow loved this, my feelings exactly....I wrote something similar but not as good lol about a 'stranger in the mirror' that I could hardly recognise the person i had become on an emotional level it was as if i was looking at a stranger in the mirror yet it was a reflection of myself....I never got to post it coz it was too revealing.

Anonymous said...

BEST PIECE EVER. . . . .

Well maybe 'cos I connect DEEPLY with this piece. Sometimes I chose to withdraw myself from all the negativity in my world and the fake facade ppl put on around me. I hide in my shell while studying the world that envelopes my outer shell but not my soul. They try so hard to break the shell that encases this delicate piece but effortlessly they FAIL, 4 only I control the world within and around me.

xxxxxxxxx
Moi

OKEY.CC said...

A nice one
thanks

SET said...

Hmmmm,change happens involuntarily sometimes, as long as you are the same person yet improved, it sounds like growth to me. Hope you are fabulous as usual Miss Lady.

Jaycee said...

Hey darl,

The girl you are (and are maturing into) will eventually be better than that girl of yesterday whom you really miss...

Love, moi!

PS: Hope u've stopped eating beans though. The girl of yesterday needs to stop growing tall...she's already tall enough!

AnyaPosh said...

Haha...I understand hun, sometimes I miss the old me too. But change is constant. We cannot hold on to previous perceptions of Self.

Anonymous said...

i feel like this applies to me!..i have become so much vulnerable...i need to wake up!

UnNaked Soul said...

very interesting... :-)

Growing up is that need you sometimes don't want.

Tyger said...

@ovewhelmed

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Funms said...

i miss the innocent and naive girl i used to be....... growing up is sometimes v hard

nosa101 said...

I'm tagging you because I have no life and you haven't posted in a while

Jaja said...

Its very quiet.

Do yo know what you are now??

FFF said...

eh ya. daz sounds so pessimistic, dear. it's all good. i believe we change 4 d better, 2 adapt better wit our present circumstances

Tiwa said...

I miss you too overwhelmed!

seems like you became more open and vulnerable which is not necceserily a bad thing...risky...but but its also brave...cuz its only when u give your all that you can get all from somethin/someone in return. I'm actually trying to be like the new you now...to be able to feel completely and say what it is I think and feel

Here's a big warm cyber hug from me to you!