Saturday, June 14, 2008

I hate this

Recently I saw someone I loved when I was younger… loved mindlessly and completely
… the first love letter I wrote and never sent
He was flirting a little… perhaps in memory of times past
… and I missed you

I met a Jamaican guy last week… 6 ft 3, dark and sexy… so funny and smart… attentive. We’re supposed to go see a movie this weekend
… wish it was you

Oh you know RK(that slightly chubby, 6ft tall, cute Jamaican guy I went to high school with)… who used to have the really long braids. He wants to go out for dinner… the movies… talk about Barack Obama, my preference in music… my past life. He wants me STILL
I see his earnestness… and I miss you.

The New American is cuter than you y'know… beautiful smile, lovely eyes, 6ft 7, light as daylight…
…and I haven’t yet returned his call…

There’s a Nigerian guy who came into the picture not long ago… so funny its absurd… so in like with my sometime immaturity and sarcasm and odd laughter. He uses words like rhapsody and perpetuate… reminds me a lot of me. He’s 6ft 2 and dark and cute and…
Not YOU

I hate this

I hate that I miss you more than I see you… that I can’t drive over and hit you when I’m mad and kiss you when I’m glad.

I hate that you’re there and I’m here and, for the reasons that already are, we can’t meet in either place at the moment

I hate your stupid I’m sorrys and I miss yous and the fact that you wouldn’t let me go when I said I didn’t want to do this any longer

I hate the fact that you come with your smile and jokes and easy laughter and… and…

I fucking miss you Marley.

38 comments:

NigerianDramaQueen said...

CAN I BE FIRST FOR ONCE?!!!!

NigerianDramaQueen said...

''I hate that you’re there and I’m here and, for the reasons that already are, we can’t meet in either place at the moment ''
~See this is why I have missed you. I have missed these nuggets of literary genious!
~More pages in the chapter called Marley huh? Maybe you should move to America!

NigerianDramaQueen said...

PS: This reminds me of the letter Julia Stiles read at the end of '10 things I hate about you'

femme fatale said...

awwww...poor u...dont worry it'll all work itself out...it usually does.
xx

OluwaDee said...

Hang in there!
Things will work out in time.

Naija finegirl said...

I know exactly what you are talking about and how you feel babe.....my heart goes out to you. Dont worry you will be fine.....you have no choice but to be!!!...xoxo

Favoured Girl said...

Awww, sorry dear. Hope everything works out for you in the end.

Bookie19 said...

Where are you meeting all these 6ft and over guys? abeg send them my way....Pele dear....love sucks i tell ya...it does some things to you that you can't explain

Kira Fashion said...

have a great weekend friend!

a kiss!!

alice in wondarland said...

i swear i feel the same way about a guy in the states...fucker!!!!

everything would be fine dear...x

goodnaijagirl said...

Pele...this isn't easy o. I hope time helps with the healing ...

Jen (MahaloFashion) said...

The same thing happened to me too, I ran into my first crush at the bus stop, I was obsessed with him back in the day. I didn't say anything though, I just played like I didn't recognize him.

uNWrItten* said...

ahhhh....love...that emotion so sought after yet so detested..
this Marley guy must be IT sha..for a whole ONB to be gelling like this...and writing all this poetry..i love it tho!

mehn school is a killer!..help me!!! lol muah!

Original Mgbeke said...

Chei..pele my sister. We've all been there. (at least I have). Time baby, time....

How you been dey na?

Zephi Fahrenheit said...

dang..you will get used to it..and maybe you might find someone else who you wont have to miss that much cos he will be there...
oh ghel you don fashi my side...
i sent you an invite, did you get it?

naijaleta said...

Wow! Are your guys usually more than 6ft tall? Any chance for shorties?

Uzo said...

Hey hon,

This is sooooo sweet. Gmail is messing with me so i havent been able to read or respond to your emails...uamuta@yahoo.com...send the emails there...

How are you?

NikkiSab said...

Babe....everytin will b fine ok.U will b fine.

zeyi said...

crazy crazy love! You will be OK girl, I know this

mirage said...

awwh this is so nice.


meanhwile i havent seen u visit my blog in a while werin happen we dey fight?

ok no vex pls come back

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

lol im not in love oh...just in 'annoying' like... he'd never believe i wrote this cos i fronttt so much(but thats cos i know he secretly loves it.. lol) im seeing him soon though(not soon enough however.. lol) cant wait to pull those nonsense dreads of his.. lol... k I'll stop... haha

Accidental SIren said...

You know a lot of Jamaicans! And where can I find a Nigerian guy over 6' tall...because there are not that many! :-(

Aijay said...

lol... Overwhelmed, u're so funny. I don't know why this post made me laugh. It was cute... U'll be just fine hunnie :)

Memoirs Of A Travelling Shoes said...

awww...eyah...i completely undertand joh..beeeen there gurl.take it ezzz u'll be iight

Pink-satin said...

yeah its kinda like julia stile's poem in 10 things i hate about you!well written though as usual!

meanwhile overwhemled blogville idol 08 is starting soon!u interested in singing?i know you wanted to sing last year!mail me pinksatinpinksatin@yahoo.com

ablackjamesbond said...

OK! Who is Marley?

Afrobabe said...

I hate long distance relationships...

You sumed it up when you said I hate that I cant come and hit you when I am mad at you....

Yep...Did I tell you I hate long distance relationships?

Smaragd said...

U are soooo into "long things" (by that i mean tall guys), geez, 6"2,6"3, 6"7! that just makes two of us i guess...lol

pls tell us more about Marley...

NDQ, i totally heart that movie "10 things..."

Charizard said...

wow and i jus happened to get here late...


mehn I dunno w@ say mehn...bu zephi is ryt...u like tall guyz o...

Kafo said...

i have to come back and read this again and again

there is a sweetness to it
underneath

Chika said...

Awwwwwwww....Get a ticket gurl

Tears said...

damn!! feel ur pain sis!! :(

Jaycee said...

Marleyyyyyyyyyyy!

How are u darling?

May God bless your week more than ur craziest imagine...

mwah!

Moody Crab said...

Babe, its been long! How you doing? Just dropping by to say hello.

Anonymous said...

i think u r a fabulous writer.u take the reader with u........helping them feel the exact feelings u felt as u wrote.luv reading ur stuff.

Buttercup said...

that was so sweet..so well written..

BeautyinBaltimore said...

LOL, overwhelmed you have Jamaican fever. Be carefull because that Jamaican dick can turn you out, just ask Lauryn Hill.

Mocha said...

*hugs*