Tuesday, March 11, 2008

There is a God

God, for me, was always a sort of abstract concept… real enough but in an abstract sense.

I always believed in him… his power, his miracles… but had never really felt a need to get particularly close.
I was perfectly fine observing Him from afar… a slightly distant but generous uncle.

I never liked my mothers church, so I found reasons to avoid it… thrice a year was time enough for me

I hardly ever prayed except in desperation… not to get ‘caught’ coming back from the club at 6am when I was at my moms for the holidays… that my account wouldn’t show insufficient funds when swiping for yet another Marciano maxi-dress that I had to have…

Something happened two weeks ago…
I went to my friends Dancing Queen and Laura O’s church

My heart was so burdened from the moment I walked in… from some events 30 months before that… from others 30 hours before.

For the first time in my life I really talked to God… not like a slightly distant but generous uncle… but like my father, my brother… my best friend.

Tears poured down my eyes from the depth of my soul…I needed something more than I had been able to find for myself.

After minutes… and hours of conversation…
I felt RELIEF
‘It’s going to be alright’

I still believe that ‘things somehow work themselves out’… but there is a quiet comfort in knowing that I don’t always have to count on my own strength, that I have someone to fight my battles for me when I get tired… someone whom I don’t even have to give a background history… who’s there to hold my hand when it gets rough and I can’t say it or write it.

I have so much faith and joy and beauty in my life…

There is a God… and I’m glad he loves me.

46 comments:

Uzo said...

Did my comment go away?

The moment that one realises that God is there. Always there to take care of everything. Then life changes a bit...

I love this

My 2 cents said...

Good one babes, good one!

You know I try not to sentimentalize religion especially within a blogspere. But there is a God.

He remains faithful when we are unfaithful and responsible when we are irresponsible,In all He loves us regardless.

As we are made in his image, we must behave like people in God's image and likeness.

If you continue to hand over all your burdens to him in obedience, you'll be pleasantly surprised at how things will fall into place and life will be so good.

NigerianDramaQueen said...

It is in my constant search of who God is, that I find all of who I am.....

Jen (MahaloFashion) said...

I believe in a higher power, you have to, to get through life. Plus us humans need questions answered like "why are we here" "where are we going to go when we die" etc

Moody Crab said...

This post got me thinking....

Happy new year, nwa nnem.

webround said...

yup! there is a God!
wishing you the very best on this journey of (new..) discovery...

Nigerican said...

Amen :).

Afrobabe said...

Sometimes we bring the troubles on ourselves, or who know maybe God brings them just to remind you there is someone high up who you can always talk to...

You know the good thing about God as opposed to religion? He is always there,willing to forgive and take u in his arms....

Hard not to love someone like that..

Naija Chickito said...

There is a God. He created you for a purpose. Life is empty without knowledge of that purpose. Finding that purpose means spending time in His presence. I wish you all the best on this journey. With consistence, the possibilities are endless.

xxx

Naijadude said...

Faith works wonder.. stay in there and it will work

ìnk said...

that was so sweet.

bumight said...

I'm glad he loves u...and me too!

Nyemoni said...

There sure is a God ONB...and He loves you! Thank God for God!

tiwalade said...

awww....
I'm glad that You've found that there really is a God and that you have allowed him to comfort you as he as been yearning to do all along.

Ms. Catwalq said...

Yes, my dear. He loves you. Otherwise, you will not exist at all...

No matter what, always remember to pray. Just because it is Monday.

InCogNaija said...

i am glad you found him, and yep! he loves us inspite of our many flaws!!

Jaycee said...

"...but there is a quiet comfort in knowing that I don’t always have to count on my own strength, that I have someone to fight my battles for me when I get tired… someone whom I don’t even have to give a background history… who’s there to hold my hand when it gets rough and I can’t say it or write it.

Felt like doing cart-wheels after I read those words...lol...

Love ya! How's the Canadian weather down there??? Mwah!

Jem said...

He definitely loves you very much...if for anything, never forget that.

nameless.poetical. said...

he didnt make it...

Unbiased said...

I am glad he loves you too. lol!!
He always did hon. He's like that cute puppy that follows you around and all you need to do is look and acknowledge his presence.

Discombobulated Diva said...

Going to church doesnt' mean you've found God, its really about the connection you make with God on your own... and i'm glad you've found that... I use to go to this church for about 12 years cause it was my mom's church, the church was ok, but when i moved to London and started attending the another branch of the same church, I amazing found a new connection with God that I'd never experienced before... I don't know if it was my situation at the time, the change in atmosphere or the new pastor that was amazing, but finding that connection with God was amazing for me... so i understand where's you're coming from!!!
Now its up to you to continue to nuture that relationship with him :-)...

all the best

~DD

Fo said...

just came by to say...i sent u a fb frnd request,nd u never accepted...:(

Naija Vixen said...

Nice one hun, its so great to see that He doesnt love us based on merit, otherwise...!

DAV!D said...

WOW!
AmazingFind!
I'mHappyYouFoundGODForYourselfAndNotThruSomeoneElse!

IHopeYouGetAddictedToHIM!

xXx

SET said...

HMMM I love this post.
God is the reason why I carry on. I have come to the conclusion that He is so near and hears me when I call and that He loves me so much that I just need to talk to him always and let His way be done in everything I want or need.

1stpet2v9 said...

YIPPIE!!! Doesn't God rock????!! Jesus Rocks too and the Holy Spirit is like the total dude!!!

I have ur photo still... take care!!!

Anonymous said...

beautifuly said

Ladi said...

Yes, there is a God!

I like this change from two posts ago...lol

Amin!

1stpet2v9 said...

lol ONB, I dunno what ur talking about ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. LMAO

ohhhhhhhhhhh

rawdawgbuffalo said...

very well said and u write well, will be back nd yes there is a god

Anonymous said...

Happy for you, God really is wonderful, there is no one out there that can tolerate our nonsense and still love us unconditionally, taking care of us and helping us in every way, I hope you asked him to be your Lord and savior and to come into your life, so that you will be boen again. Don't get me wrong, I am not saying becoming a showy face value SU, but having a deeper, truer walk with Jesus Christ, there is nothing else like it.

God Bless

Kafo said...

amen

Beyond said...

wow! this is real touching ..... glad younow know how great knowing God is.
been a while, hope you are doing great.

Omosewa said...

Heyyy babbeeeeeee longest time, i can totally relate with this. When i feeeel downnnnn i bring to remembrance Gods love for me and how he has shown it over and over and over and overrrr...

Have a blessed week babe.Mwahhh

laspapi said...

Glad you met the Man.

Vera Ezimora said...

My sweerie,

I was gonna leave blogger permanently oh, but your undying love 4 me brought me back, lol. How now?

I'm glad you had a moment with God. I know what you mean. We have moments that God just calms our spirits. Things might be chaotic as hell, but God just does something. I don't know how He does it, but He does.

Zephi Fahrenheit said...

aww...loving this spirtual side of my cyber sis..very refreshing

dana said...

God dey oh

יש (Yosh) said...

Very sobering post. I felt like this last night and all that could come in my head was Pink's Dear Diary:

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
I know you'll keep them, and this is what I've
done

I've been a bad, bad girl for so long...


...only you replace "diary" with "God" and girl with boy! :)

Thx for stopping over hon, and welcome back from Naija! :D Whoa, another survivor!

Chika said...

my sister na so o.....God dey sha.

teediva said...

i get those moments too! they stoke the fire of my faith.

good for u girl, there is nothing like the realisation.

read all the previous posts too, was just too lazy to comment.love the naija gist, and the fact that u admitted to being shallow just as i thought it!

Arewa said...

of course there is a God. Having faith in him works miracles.
2 Tim 1:12b-14 (NIV) I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him for that day. What you heard from me, keep as the pattern of sound teaching, with faith and love in Christ Jesus. Guard the good deposit that was entrusted to you, guard it with the help of the Holy Spirit that lives in us.

Omohemi Benson said...

I enjoyed this,
am Glad you experienced him,
the relationship will get better.

Uzezi said...

of course there is a God. He has been present in my life for so long that I know He has no intentions of letting me go, because even when I try to go solo, He reminds me I can do nothing, be nothing, achieve nothing, without Him.

Gn said...

ALL Glory & thanks to GOD!!!

Favoured Girl said...

I'm so totally happy to read this post! I love it when God reveals Himself to His children in His own way. God has been there for you all along, and He will always be there. In fact, He is patiently waiting for you to come and sit on His laps and pour out all your worries to Him and He will take care of it. Trust me, I'm speaking from experience when I say that my life starts making sense when I seek God for myself. I would encourage you to do the same.