Thursday, December 21, 2006

My Big Baby

I called him on Monday night and we talked:

This man is beyond unreasonable…
He’s just a big baby!!!

He didn’t call me for 4 days because he likes me!!!
WTF?!?!?!

He felt like he was too dependent on me for his happiness and wanted to prove to himself that he could ‘do’ without me…
He can… and I can do without him… but do we really want to throw away all we have?

He loves being with me and will try to deal with his little ‘drama and episodes’ next time without hurting me
He better!

We’re back on track
What a relief!!

He still loves me still
Beautiful

I saw him on Tuesday:
It was a gorgeous evening… full of colour and new beginnings. I believe this is right if only for a little while… I believe this as much as the bee believes in honey.

He just held me and told me it was alright… we’ll make it. His arms around me were so comforting... safe, quiet, warm and comforting.

In those moments, nothing else mattered…
In those moments, anything seemed possible.
In those moments, every happiness was offered.
Before I thought I was traveling towards a destination… but in those moments, I felt like I had arrived.

It’s become obvious to me that my trusted iron wall beyond which no male could penetrate has started crumbling. I’m drifting and he’s the closest to catching me!

Before him, every time that I’ve been involved with a guy there’s always been a point when I realize that I’m like a stranger in a foreign country who tries to pay with the wrong ‘currency’.
I'm learning the hard way… “ You always have to ‘convert’ to survive!!!”

It used to feel like I was doomed to forever inspire love but never feel it.
A wind of change is blowing my way and for the first time… I’m kind of excited!

My excitement is bursts of colours and rainbows and stars and giant flowers…
In my excitement there are euphoric shouts, thrilled laughs, blushing giggles, beatific smiles… there are horses jumping, crickets flying, birds chirping, lions roaring.
My excitement is stories of joy, tales of sorrow and everything inbetween.

This is the time of my life that I think every other time will be compared to. I love it but some part of me watches me living it. I know that this might be my age of gold… that nothing this nice, this sweet, this great lasts forever… but as day turns into night… and night into day… my only plan right now is to enjoy it. I won't consider the future… never ask myself what will happen tomorrow or the day after. For now, each day will be enough!

I'm in it deeper than you know my big baby!!!

45 comments:

Anonymous said...

thanks for your comment earlier babe. its good to see you so happy!

azuka said...

See what I mean?

Errr, did my forecast prove true the next time you saw him? Don't tell me you haven't seen him?

Nyemoni said...

Girlfriend, I am glad for you! I am at a loss for what to say, but I'm happy you're happy... Enjoy!

Anonymous said...

Yay ...you guys are back on track, I'm so pleased for you!

nosa101 said...

He is a complete tosser, I am sure he wears pink scarves in the winter, eh? He is a "girly-man" according to Anold Schwarzenegger

nosa101 said...

Arnold, I mean

36 INCHES OF BROWN LEGS said...

hey babes,

im so happy because, because??? oh i dont know what to say im happy cos u r happy.

DiAmOnD hawk said...

girl it's sorta scary to be in this place...very scary...these feelings are so intense...i find myself holding my breath for you sometimes...but Im glad you're back on track...remember to keep breathing thru it all

Anonymous said...

well, i definitely glad to hear that you guys are back on track... and it sounds like you're head over heels over there... definitely enjoy it girl and all the pleasures that come with it all... ~DD

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

@confusednaijagirl: Thanks luv… I’m happy too

@Azuka: lol… saw him on Tuesday now… abi you no read the blog entry ehn Azuka?! You berra put on your glasses and follow the gist properly… yeah… I saw him and it was chill

@Nyemoni: Thanks sunshine… I hope you’re finally willing to update your blog cos me I’ve missed you oh.. hope you’re feeling way better now!

@Vickii: Thanks luv… it’s going fantastic at this point

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

@Nosa101: Lmao… na craze dey worry you… complete artificial winter craze… lol…

@36 inches: hehe… you’re beautiful

@DiamondHawk: I hold my breathe for me sometimes too but they tell me the clue to enjoying it is to just ‘live it’… thanks babe

@Discombobulated: Thanks sunshine… I’m trying to

chainreader said...

*yes, yes, yes!*

girl, this post made me smile! it's soo good to see you happy! guess this means we'll be having a merry xmas, afterall!

you are right about one thing, you are in real deep. but the way i see it, that's the only way to feel everything that love has to offer. like luther vandross would say,

"it's not all heaven, it's not all hell.

girl, you like corrine bailey rae? that has moved you several notches up on my scale. she's hella hot!

Anonymous said...

Lollll - nice to see you soo happy. Enjoy!

Happy Holidays!!!

Icy said...

am all teary eyed mehn damn! ONB see wut ya causing o!

Anonymous said...

@ ONB

"Yellow" girl,
Glad you're happy, just like i said..its fine, you'll be fine.
take care.

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

@chainreader: lol… a very merry xmas it seems!!! I like that line… thanks sunshine… Oh my gosh I luv Corinne bailey rae… I had her album on instant replay for a few weeks.. my favourite songs on the album are enchantment, trouble sleeping and put your records on.. her voice is smooth like butter!!! Oh my gosh right now I’m listening to the dreamgirls soundtrack.. babe its fantastic… listen to it if you have the chance to.. Jennifer Hudson’s voice is a force of nature!!!

@Noni Moss: Happy Holidays to you to babe… I don write you letter make you admit me for your exclusive chatroom.. I hope you got it… if not.. abeg my email is overwhelmednaijababe@gmail.com…. Abeg allow me enter to gist with you now shioooooo!

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

@icy: you’re a sweetheart… thanks luv

@Nilla: lmao@yellow girl… I haven’t gotten that one in a while… you dey bring me all kinds of memories oh… thanks luv… Hope you’re getting ready for my xmas present

Anonymous said...

miss overwhelmed, good for you. hopefully you guys only wax stronger.

Stranger said...

clap...clap...clap...i hope you also told him you were sorry for not believing in his love for you enough...did u see the movie i recommended you yet, "Madea's Family Reunion"?...one of my fave quotes from it is... "Love is many things; it's varied. But one thing it's not and can never be, is uncertain"...Merry Christmas Overwhelmed NaijaBabe...i got you an xmas gift...psalm 61v2...

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

@Abbey: Thanks sunshine… I’m happy for you with your acceptances and all… Merry xmas in Advance

@Stranger: lol… you’re a sweetheart

NaijaBloke said...

Which kain yeye boy be this sef.. wey I dan dey think say he go make ur ass sweat for like a month ..dat boy needs some training mehn ...

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

@NaijaBloke: lmao… so this is the good wishes you have for your beautiful ex-girlfriend ehn? Anyways sha… I don’t blame it, it’s that girl Vera… ever since she came into your life… you have been acting like a Buddhist!!!

chainreader said...

that's funny! i saw a video off that album, the one by beyonce. don't know the name. she was singing to her father, telling him to listen. was on mphalele's (did i spell that right?) blog. and i thought to myself,"ONB really needs to hear this one". i was going to come tell you to listen to it, but i saw you had commented on it already. love that song. and meeeen, does she have some pipes on her!

Anonymous said...

awwww babe i'm so so happy for u i was just waiting for this post to say everything was alright like i hoped...good for u girl hopefully one day i'll find love like this lol but seriosly chick i'm really happy everything is alright and u guys are back on track...have a lovely weekend which is so obvious it'll be what with boyfie back and all that make up to do lol...mwah

Anonymous said...

@ ONB
Yes I'm getting ready to receive an xmas present from you :-)... when should i expect it??
Yours is on its way...expect it in the next 5hrs +/- ...LOL

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

@chainreader: oh I love that song listen but babe believe me if you listen to other songs on the soundtrack you’ll be ‘overwhelmed’.. lol… there’s I am changing by Jennifer Hudson, one night only.. in fact every song on the album is a gem… I think you can find those ones on youtube…I can’t wait to watch dreamgirls and pursuit of happiness(my friends say this one is a real tear-jerker… and I can’t wait to see if a sad movie can get the boyfriend to cry… lmao…I go laugh am die!!!) What’s your plans for Christmas?

@Life through rose-tinted glasses: I’m glad everything worked out… lol… I still haven’t said I’m in love oh… I just said I’m in deep… hehe… yeah… we’re supposed to go see a movie this weekend and shoe shopping too(lol… he said he’ll have to pick out the shoes cos if he leaves me to it… I’ll just buy high heels like always… and he wants me to have a pair of flats… I just say he’s jealous that in some of my heels I look taller than him jare… lol)

@Nilla: What you want for xmas babe? I can sing you Christmas carols, lullabies, Shina Peter and Femi Akinpelu melodies, I can rap, freestyle, I can skat, beatbox and dj. I can sing Japanese Opera… and I know all the lyrics to Eddie Murphys first album… what more can you ask for ehn? So just pick your choice oh… cos I’m demand oh! lol

Anonymous said...

Awww.. sweet. Glad things are going great. Enjoy it.

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

@Daddy's Girl: I am... Thanks beautiful

Anonymous said...

What did I say. There's nothing better than a really sloppy love story..lol! I am cheesing my butt off at work reading this.
I am happy you both managed to talk about it. Men are very strange creatures, but what can we do but love their strange asses. I think the draw in relationships is that we never completely understand each other, but hey it works.
Really glad you sorted it out. Here's to enjoying the present and building worthwhile moments!!!

Anonymous said...

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww i'm so happy for you!!1 YAY!!!

Anonymous said...

LMAO @ nosa101's comment!

Anonymous said...

ohhh and I TOLD YOU!!! i told u it would be something you totally didnt expect!! he loves you!! YAY!!!

Ineka said...

Awwwwwwwwww....

How old is your man?

Anonymous said...

awww he sounds sooo sweet, he's a keeper! enjoy being loved by someone who cares for u, sometimes we lose sight of that

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

@Maiden Voyage: lol… you’re so cute… and right! Guys can be completely strange I guess its that men are from mars women are from venus thing… I guess the clue is to meet somewhere in the middle(on earth)… thanks sunshine… merry xmas to you and yours

@Mphahlele: lol… thanks sunshine… it seems you’re the psychic one here knowing how things are gonna turn out and everything… but I’m glad they did work out… don’t mind Nosa jare… he’s getting high on BA weed… lol… Merry Xmas beautiful

@Ineka: 23… lol

@Naijalove: Thanks beautiful… I’m trying! Hope you’re having fun with the very sexy Dr. O… matter of fact I’m gonna go on your blog right now and find out whats the deal with that situation! Hehe

Anonymous said...

:-)

Merry Xmas!!!

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas ONB. Glad to hear eveything's okay now. Have fun over the weekend.

Anonymous said...

Phew... all is good again abi??

Merry X-mas :)

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

@LondonBuki: Thanks luv… same to you… and I hope you’re still getting ready for my xmas present oh babe… me I want black nail polish and an ipod oh!!!

@Mari: Same to you luv… The weekend’s looking to be great!

@Belle: Yes oh… all is good… the ups and downs no easy at all… Merry Xmas gorgeous!

Anonymous said...

alas ONB is happy. All is well.I am so glad for you. Have a jolly merry happy christmas. NICE.

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Vera Ezimora said...

Sometimes I think love really sucks. I think I know what love is, but sometimes I think I don't. I'm happy you're back on track sha...I wish you all the best sweetie. Don't get too happy that I called you sweetie today, and don't get used 2 it either!

Merry Christmas!!!

Overwhelmed Naija Babe said...

@The Life: Oh the Christmas is looking like it’s going to be very jolly indeed. Thanks sunshine

@Vera: I’m not sure even I know what love is… but like you said… yea… I’m on track! I already know the way you feel about me Vera so please don’t try to pretend eh! Merry Christmas too sunshine!!

Anonymous said...

u'r just a drama queen. Like you didn't know you can't live without each other, making everybody worry like that.
Sha be safe, don't forget to cover up in your make-up process. ntchsheew. nonsense. all you couples making us feel like we're missing something. hate y'all!
anyway, i'm jus warning you, don't ever scare us(me) like that again!!
X

beautyinbaltimore said...

I glad that the two of you are back togeather.

I was shocked when you wrote that you are 5'11. For some reason I pictured you as someone who is 5'0-5'2 and about 100(size0 ). I notice I have a pictures in my head of all blog friends.