It’s been weird with the boyfriend for the past few days
I mean the last time I saw him was when he slept over at my house on Monday night last week
We had fun… talked, laughed, ate… fucked… our usual, regular fun
He called me on Tuesday night and we talked till I fell asleep.
It was a cute conversation…
I remember him telling me that he was continually amazed by how much he felt for me. I told him I felt the same
He usually calls me every single day so I was surprised when he didn’t call me on Wednesday. I still didn’t hear from him by Thursday, so I called him in the evening. We talked for a bit and I asked him why he didn't called me the day before.
He said he hadn’t been in a good mood.
I remember telling him that ours wasn’t a ‘good-times-only’ relationship.
I mean if something bothered him… he could always call me and talk to me about it.
He admitted that he already felt better talking to me.
We talked a bit more but I could sense a little change and asked him if anything was wrong… he said everything was cool… but that he would ‘come-back-to-me’… FROM WHO? WHERE? WHAT?… hmmmm
I was down that same day with a cold, cough and headache so he stayed with me on the phone while I sipped some herbal tea.
I told him to come and see me on Friday and he told me had to go and see his cousin/friend. I asked him if it was for anything important and he said no… It was only that he’d promised him. What? I was used to him sort of working his weekend schedule around mine. I told him he’d changed because it seemed like all of a sudden I was an option and not a priority. He didn’t say anything about that except that he’d see me on Saturday instead. Remember this conversation happened on Thursday night. It’s been four days now… and I still haven’t heard from my boyfriend. He hasn’t called!!!
I don’t want to jump to conclusions but this is wearing me out… is he punishing me for something I don’t even remember doing? The last time we talked we didn’t argue… the last time we saw, we didn’t fight… so what was this all about? I mean it’s been 4 days… the longest we have ever gone in our relationship without talking? Is our romance done before it’s even begun? Is he taking time off to think? To find him a ‘replacement’? Am I being paranoid? I don’t want to call him cos I didn’t initiate this… I mean I called him on Thursday and he said he’d call me the next day… it’s been 4 days and still nothing.. I don’t really know what to do except wait and see… I’m so new at this emotional ‘wringling’ bullshit. Should I just call him today and just confirm what I already feel in my heart? That we’re done… cos what other explanation could there be? I mean what could he tell me that would make up for the past few days… what could he have been doing that was so important he couldn’t even call me? I hope he doesn’t screw me over really bad cos I’m already hurting
I'm so confused… he hasn’t called!